Day 6

It is Saturday, a day I usually sleep late, smoke a lot, and generally live like a slug on the couch. Well, not much has changed. I am still being as lazy as ever but I am not smoking, it really makes relaxing even better, since I dont have to get up. Anyway, the days are getting better and the cravings are fewer and weaker everytime. There are still a few triggers that really make me want to smoke but I am finding it fairly simple to just think through the urge knowing it will be gone in a minute. A friend of mine, who also just quit smoking, said he did not feel quite whole anymore, "like someone took away my security blanket". What a great comparison. I dont know why I feel like I need to smoke in all the circumstances I find myself wanting too, but I do feel like part of me is gone. I guess that is true, an unhealthy part, now I need something new, to make me feel whole again. Maybe an exercise plan, we'll see.